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gracefulone
So starting in late May, I didn't really love gymnastics anymore. I decided to ride it out for awhile, and do the whole Y nationals business and then see how I felt. It wasn't the best, but for the summer it was fine. Once school started, it got worse. I was just going through the motions when I was in the gym, but I thought it would get better after the first meet. Well the first meet came and went (Nov 16th), and I literally hate going to practice. I find every reason not to go. The problem is that I have paid for most of the meets already and the new leo. Part of the reason I stayed in it was for the YMCA scholarship, which people have said I have a good chance of winning, and you have to go to nats your senior year. But now, I've been asking myself if it's worth the $1,000, and so much of the time, my answer is no. I talked to my coach(the one who's only 6 months in..my long time coach wasn't there tonight) and she wasn't helpful at all...I told her I hated coming to practice, and she told me she liked it when I came to practice. And also offered to beat up my teammate(total joke). I feel like quitting now would be such a waste, and I'd be disappointing everyone...my coaches, teammates, family, but at the same time I don't know if I can last 7 more months like this, and I know it will only get worse once track starts in March. AHHHHH