- Feb 16, 2022
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i recently turned 16, and have done gymnastics for about 6 years. I keep seeing around all my socials, girls who are younger or the same age doing all the skills that my mental blocks stops me from doing. i’m only an xcel gold (i need my flight skill on beam in order to go to plat), and i wish i was able to do these things i know i can do but i just freak myself out. I can’t twist because i’m paranoid about my ankles (i tape every every practice), my mental health has also descended dramatically. gymnastics is my place to let go everything but i cant even send a simple flyaway. I just want to give up, but i know i can’t because this is my one and only sport i actually enjoy. but seeing girls my age or younger completing the dreams i’ve had since i was 8 makes my heart sink. I feel like a failure atleast my vault score is a 9.55