- Oct 4, 2009
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Okay, the last few training sessions have been awful for me. The problem with this time of year is that its the time of year where groups switch around and everything is a bit uncertain.
A bit of background information:
There are 3 different tiers of gymnastics competition - IDP (elite path) NDP (general path) and SS (less hours, less competitive).
Okay so recently our coach has needed us to 'lock in' for next year and Its a bit more complicated for me as i am currently in year 12 and will no longer be at school next year. I said yes assuming uni schedule allows it. However after the past few training sessions i'm not so sure.
So it is new skills time and i am getting no where at the moment. Before comp season i could BHS on high beam with a light spot now i won't go on floor beam without a spot. I am scared of everything on beam. I just wouldn't go for anything today and for me that is rare. I've never been scared of anything before and i just wouldn't go for anything. Then came tumble time. I have been learning to twist and i did one awesome one and then they were just plain awful and just very interesting to say the least. I am not progressing and its frustrating.
Secondly, I am the oldest on my team and am older than the next oldest by 2 years which is fine as i get along better with younger people than older people anyway. But it also puts a whole lot of pressure on me and i feel like i should advance quicker and be a better gymnast than those who are younger. I know it doesn't work like that in gymnastics but it is really hard to watch 12 year olds over take you or come close to your ability anyway. I guess i can't expect it considering that i have made it to training level 7 in less than 3 years and it has been rushed when a lot of these girls have been doing gym for a lot longer.
Thirdly, at the moment we have 2 coaches and coach 1 is great she is a fantastic coach who came last year and has done a world of change for our squad. She is fantastic. coach 2 is a little more frustrating she doesn't really give any constructive criticism but 'that was disgusting do it again!' and has massive mood swings as well so its really difficult to pick what mood she is in. Coach 1 who i love is moving to NDP because the current NDP head coach is moving to IDP and so i am not sure who we are going to be left over with and if we are only having coach 2 i don't really want to continue next year. I am sick of having so many coaching swaps and its driving me insane. I just wish we could have one coach that stuck around for a bit. Also, now that coach 1 is moving to NDP she has also offered some SS girls to move across to NDP and lets be honest they are the only people who she really helps at the moment.
Basically its times like this that make me feel like i should just quit next year. The other option is i just go to tumbling and do that for a year instead. I really want to compete but i feel like i've hit a brick wall and just am not progressing any further. Honestly at the end of gym today i just wanted to quit but i could never make a rash decision like that so won't be quitting at the moment.
If you read all that congratulations and sorry for boring you
A bit of background information:
There are 3 different tiers of gymnastics competition - IDP (elite path) NDP (general path) and SS (less hours, less competitive).
Okay so recently our coach has needed us to 'lock in' for next year and Its a bit more complicated for me as i am currently in year 12 and will no longer be at school next year. I said yes assuming uni schedule allows it. However after the past few training sessions i'm not so sure.
So it is new skills time and i am getting no where at the moment. Before comp season i could BHS on high beam with a light spot now i won't go on floor beam without a spot. I am scared of everything on beam. I just wouldn't go for anything today and for me that is rare. I've never been scared of anything before and i just wouldn't go for anything. Then came tumble time. I have been learning to twist and i did one awesome one and then they were just plain awful and just very interesting to say the least. I am not progressing and its frustrating.
Secondly, I am the oldest on my team and am older than the next oldest by 2 years which is fine as i get along better with younger people than older people anyway. But it also puts a whole lot of pressure on me and i feel like i should advance quicker and be a better gymnast than those who are younger. I know it doesn't work like that in gymnastics but it is really hard to watch 12 year olds over take you or come close to your ability anyway. I guess i can't expect it considering that i have made it to training level 7 in less than 3 years and it has been rushed when a lot of these girls have been doing gym for a lot longer.
Thirdly, at the moment we have 2 coaches and coach 1 is great she is a fantastic coach who came last year and has done a world of change for our squad. She is fantastic. coach 2 is a little more frustrating she doesn't really give any constructive criticism but 'that was disgusting do it again!' and has massive mood swings as well so its really difficult to pick what mood she is in. Coach 1 who i love is moving to NDP because the current NDP head coach is moving to IDP and so i am not sure who we are going to be left over with and if we are only having coach 2 i don't really want to continue next year. I am sick of having so many coaching swaps and its driving me insane. I just wish we could have one coach that stuck around for a bit. Also, now that coach 1 is moving to NDP she has also offered some SS girls to move across to NDP and lets be honest they are the only people who she really helps at the moment.
Basically its times like this that make me feel like i should just quit next year. The other option is i just go to tumbling and do that for a year instead. I really want to compete but i feel like i've hit a brick wall and just am not progressing any further. Honestly at the end of gym today i just wanted to quit but i could never make a rash decision like that so won't be quitting at the moment.
If you read all that congratulations and sorry for boring you