Gymnasts Mental block help

[GiaTheGymnast]

Hi I am a second year xcel gold gymnast and did one year of silver also and rec classes for 10 years before that and I have had a mental block on squat ons for five years now and I have gotten them consistent a few times but then would just lose it and they scare me a lot and I have tried Avery thing from drills to YouTube videos to repetitions and spots and nothing works sometimes I will be able to make it but it just dosent feel right and I am to scared to even have a spot from my coach when I used to have it consistent for the longest time I’ve ever had it consistent was when my bar set that I use was in a different spot in the gym then it is now and after they moved it I just couldn’t do it even though they just scooted it up and away from how close it was to the wall. Last year and In silver I was never able to make it and not even when we would show routines at the gym but at meets I would be able to make it because of the pressure but this year I just had my first meet and it wasn’t the best since I took a month off because I broke my finger and I had only two weeks to prepare I diddnt even try my squat on because now it just feels like in my brain I can’t even attempt to do it and they don’t feel natural, this is supposed to be my last year of gold and if I can’t go to platinum next year I will have to quit so I really need this and my coach always tells me not to be a weenie and just do it but they don’t understand that it is such a mental obstacle that I’m facing not a physical one and not a weenie problem