I have been doing gymnastics for 10 years, I feel like its always been my life. Last year in January, I started having back tumbling problems due to mental blocks. It was terrible and hung over me the whole season, causing me to compete mod-op instead of 7. I wanted to quit, but somehow, I was able to get past the fear and gymnastics was fun again. That is, until the beginning of summer this year. Once we started up our summer practices, I began to dread going to practice more and more. I just told myself that I had to make it until July, because that's when 10 teammates, me, and my coach were going to Karolyi Camp for 2 weeks. It was beyond fun and really made me enjoy gymnastics again. I able to move up to level 8. But when we got back to the gym, and mostly around the time school started, I found myself dreading practice again. My coach noticed my lack of enthusiasm at gym, and I finally told her that for about a month, I was thinking about quitting. I told her it was just not fun anymore, and I felt like I was getting behind everyone, and that I was starting to get more scared of skills. We talked and decided to give it til the end of September to really make a decision. But now I'm just so confused about what I should do. I feel like sometimes I just hate going to practice, and I think about it all day at school and how much I don't want to go. And when i get to gym, I feel frustrated and like I dont want to be there. It feels more like a chore than a sport. Other reasons i want to quit is because since I'm getting older, I have so much less energy, like when conditioning and running longer bar routines, and it makes it so much harder. Also, I'm starting to get scared of skills like back-handspring x2 on beam, and just beam in general ( which really surprises everyone because I've been literally "beam-queen" at my gym forever and now I despise it).
But despite all the reasons I want to quit, i feel like if I did, i would regret it and miss it. It's the only sport ive ever done and sometimes I still love it, like on good practice days where everything goes great, or after I do a great skill or routine. I'm would miss it so much and my teammates, but I still think about quitting at literally every practice. But I also want to go back to Karolyi camp next year. Someone please give me insight and advice cuz I'm so lost and indecisive. Thank you so much!
But despite all the reasons I want to quit, i feel like if I did, i would regret it and miss it. It's the only sport ive ever done and sometimes I still love it, like on good practice days where everything goes great, or after I do a great skill or routine. I'm would miss it so much and my teammates, but I still think about quitting at literally every practice. But I also want to go back to Karolyi camp next year. Someone please give me insight and advice cuz I'm so lost and indecisive. Thank you so much!