jwerity
Gymnast
- Dec 7, 2021
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So, I'm a 12 year old, female. I’m starting gymnastic practices soon because why not? it’s something fun to do and I'm interested in it. (+I’m also flexible!). The problem is,
I have bad anxiety sometimes, often mood swings as well. And I’ve done my research, seen it all. i’ve heard stuff like “It’s too late”, “It will be harder when you’re older” and more related to the examples i just stated. I feel like the other female gymnastics there who have trained longer than me will judge me for something yk what I wear, my body, my skills that are matchless to theirs. Like I wouldn’t fit in. Especially when I’m a POC… And there aren’t many POC gymnastics here where I live. I tend to overthink a lot. Which I know I shouldn’t be doing. I’d literally cry if I embarrassed myself in front of so many talented people. Ugh. Sorry, I’m just overall scared. There’s more I want to say but I feel like it would be too much.
I have bad anxiety sometimes, often mood swings as well. And I’ve done my research, seen it all. i’ve heard stuff like “It’s too late”, “It will be harder when you’re older” and more related to the examples i just stated. I feel like the other female gymnastics there who have trained longer than me will judge me for something yk what I wear, my body, my skills that are matchless to theirs. Like I wouldn’t fit in. Especially when I’m a POC… And there aren’t many POC gymnastics here where I live. I tend to overthink a lot. Which I know I shouldn’t be doing. I’d literally cry if I embarrassed myself in front of so many talented people. Ugh. Sorry, I’m just overall scared. There’s more I want to say but I feel like it would be too much.