Coming back from a 9 month injury break has been a rough process. My knee rarely ever gives me pain but my confidence and mental toughness is basically nothing. At first my thoughts were "You've been gone for 9 months give yourself a break you're going to be scared!" but after being back for a month and a half the fear is still there and it's just getting worse. I doubt myself on everything and not only is that dangerous if I balk (i sprained my ankle pretty bad going for my first tumbling pass since on floor because i balked!) but it has also done nothing to help my self confidence. Bars and vault aren't much of an issue, pretty straight forward, thankfully form and strength is slowly coming back. But floor and beam are a completely different story... I can barley walk down the regulation competition beam, let alone do any skills. I have always had issues with beam (it doesn't help this is where I hurt myself too) but now it is getting ridiculous. My mind is a complete mess and I cant think straight and my body starts to freak out and shut down to the point where I wont let myself go for any skills. I had a complete breakdown today trying to do half turns on the hip height beam. Everyone at the gym is trying to be supportive but sometimes it just makes it worse. They don't understand why I wont chuck a back tuck or why I have my coach spot me on the LOW BEAM, and neither do I. My coach and I talked today and he thinks that I may be slightly scared of the simple skills just because I haven't done them, but I'm also freaking myself out because I know these are leading to the bigger skills.
Anyways, I'm desperate to regain my confidence and not fear everything so much. I've heard great things about Doctor Ali's Head Games on here. Would you guy's recommend this, and do you think it could help? If so, would you recommend the 12 Week Mental Toughness Training workbook or the Train Your Mind visualization CD? If not this do you have anything else worth trying?
I also realize that this is a mental block issue, I've dealt with mental blocks before but nothing quite like this. I'm just looking for some advice and support on how to deal. You don't know how much any amount of advice would be appreciated.
Anyways, I'm desperate to regain my confidence and not fear everything so much. I've heard great things about Doctor Ali's Head Games on here. Would you guy's recommend this, and do you think it could help? If so, would you recommend the 12 Week Mental Toughness Training workbook or the Train Your Mind visualization CD? If not this do you have anything else worth trying?
I also realize that this is a mental block issue, I've dealt with mental blocks before but nothing quite like this. I'm just looking for some advice and support on how to deal. You don't know how much any amount of advice would be appreciated.